Tuesday, March 12, 2013

Reinventing Myself, Once Again

Hey, look, it's me!  I'm back!

Well...  sort of.  I know, I've been MIA for the past six months.  I don't know why, but I just lost my blogging mojo.  Sure, things happened that I could share, but I would rather not post than slap up a blow-by-blow of my family life.  Don't get me wrong - I'm not knocking those who do just that; it's just not me.  I prefer to share something I learned the hard way, peppered with a healthy dose of snark.

So...  I'm back, bitches.

There have been some major changes going on over here.  Nothing bad, fortunately, but changes that are drastically affecting our family's day to day life.  Changes like getting up earlier, kissing the Hubster goodbye much, much earlier, and managing the care and wrangling of offspring from sun up (actually, from before sun up, thanks to the time change) to sun down with only myself upon which to rely.

Well, truth be told, I'm also relying heavily on my insanely helpful parents when it comes to the evening activity shuffle.  Can't not give props to the village.

I will be brutally honest here:  I'm very proud of the Hubster, and I'm insanely excited that he is being recognized financially and otherwise for his abilities and is in an incredibly supportive work environment with start-up-like perks, but I hate - with the fire of a thousand suns - that his commute leaves me alone to handle every. blasted. aspect. of the kids' lives, from school to activities to discipline to bedtime.  I feel like I've been abandoned.  And I feel like a complete and raging bitch when I tell him this.

So?  What am I going to do about it?  Keep bitching, knowing that nothing will change just by bitching, or do something about it?

I am going to do absolutely nothing.


I'll keep bitching.

Not kidding.

Come on now, I've been bitching for so many years that I've practically perfected my technique.

Except...  this time I am going to really think about what it is that I need to make my life work for me.  I know, I've done this before.  But face it - as a mother of young kids, I have to keep doing that because the kids' needs keep changing.  So I have to make changes accordingly.

I'll keep you posted on my progress.  Let's hope its direction is mostly forward.