J's music teacher thinks there's something going on with him that needs to be evaluated. That's never an easy thing to hear, that someone thinks there is something *up* with your child (I don't think something is wrong, but something is definitely going on).
I am slowly starting to realize that this is not a direct reflection of me as a person or a parent. He is his own person, and makes many of his own choices without me, and a lot of them are good choices. Realizing this, and accepting that there might be something more than deliberately poor choices at play was actually a kind of freedom. I've thought long and hard and tried so many things in an effort to redirect his behavior, and felt like *I* failed when they didn't work.
So tomorrow, I take the first step to have him evaluated. God help me, I need His strength for this one.